Half a Glass

"Cold," you say, and hand the glass to me. I open my chest and place it where my heart should be.


Another week of ups and downs. I guess that is life, huh? The boy and I are over... is this a glass half full or half empty thing? A bit of both I would think. I just ordered myself a Canon EOS Digital Rebel XTI. I'm quite sure this is a half full thing as my parents are paying for it as my Christmas and next Birthday presents. Work is going okay. My new job is kinda making me wonder if I made the right choice in that regard. I haven't been able to really concentrate at either job lately though. I really want to move out of my apartment. My landlord is never going to fix my door. I want to stop going to a laundromat. I need more room for my art stuff. But do I really want to move right now? I haven't been here a year yet and I just kinda got it so I like it. I haven't been sleeping well for quite some time now and I think it is really getting to me. I keep trying new ways to keep awake during the day and actually fall asleep at night. But nothing really is working for either. My favorite holiday is coming up (Halloween) but I don't have the spirit this year. No decorations have come out this year and I don't really have an idea for a costume yet. I doubt I'll do anything anyway as it is on a Wednesday between hanging for a show and the actual show. At least that project is going pretty well. I gave up on finding one thing for it but it is almost done and I like where it is going. I have been painting a lot this week which is a good thing. It is like therapy for me which it seems like I need right now. I need something to happen that will make me sleep well and get me out of this funk. I I I.... I know this blog is self-centered and kind of a downer but that's what is in my head right now. But I think of all you too and hope you are well.